and now let me get back to battlestar galactica and knitting

i was going to write a bit about my interesting night last night which ended up with me being stuck out in the cold and locked out of vlad's warehouse 3am in the morning, but i'm too busy watching battlestar galactica (thanks will for getting me addicted to yet another tv show) and knitting of course.

so here is my second entry from my notes on facebook about me seeing waaaay too many doctors in waaaay too short a time.

3 doctors in 5 1/2 hours

Thursday, August 21, 2008 at 10:51pm

and still...no results.

so today i saw an internist, cardiologist and lung specialist. the internist told me there was definitely something wrong with my lungs and also wanted me to get my heart checked. so i saw a cardiologist, got a heart sonogram, and was told that i have extra fluid in the lining of my heart. he told me that this is probably because i have an infection somewhere in my body, most likely from my lungs. he didn't make it out to be anything life threatening, but extra fluid in the lining of my heart still doesn't sound so pleasant.

next i see the lung specialist. after spending almost half an hour doing breathing test after breathing test he tells me that my lungs are abnormally small. not sure what that means other than its obviously not helping me breathe so well, but it doesn't sound good. he's worried that i might have a blood clot in my lungs so now i have to get myself a catscan...on monday.

sooooo...i'm still here, coughing my mini lungs out wondering what the hell is wrong with me...

the beginning

here is my day, short and sweet - it sucked. today is a down day...it happens.

but here it is, like i promised, the beginning of my story about cancer.

note to self
Saturday, August 16, 2008 at 10:34am

this note is not really to myself. it is more like a note to all of those who might be wondering what the hell has happened to me.

it was only 2 weeks ago that i had realized that the physical and mental decline that i have been experiencing in the past 2 1/2 months was a little more serious than i had thought. since this realization, i've seen my doctor 3 times in the past 2 weeks, landed myself in the ER twice, and have a list of specialists i need to see. i have taken so many blood tests that i feel that my anemia is almost being caused by so much blood loss, but even after test after test, doctors still have not received any conclusive results.

what is wrong with me? i don't know. my symptoms keep on growing and the extent as to how long i have felt like this is puzzling my doctors. i'm not contagious. whatever i have is solely in me.

to all those that i've tried to make plans with to hang out, i apologize for constantly having to cancel. there are times when i feel fine and think that i will make it, only to realize that after walking half a block i am already feeling out of breathe and dizzy. i miss everyone and wish that i could see you all again soon.