farewell my metaport

my metaport is finally gone! woooo!!! at first i welcomed having one, but now i'm glad that it's finally out of my body. i probably wouldn't have minded keeping it a bit longer if it wasn't giving me strange sharp pains every so often.

i want to write more, but i feel pretty nauseous from post-surgery pain meds...

so here's an old post from my facebook notes -

a new scar

Wednesday, September 10, 2008 at 8:45pm

so it seems i will be stuck at north shore for quite a bit longer. tomorrow i will have to have what doctors call the "chamberlain procedure." basically they're gonna slice me open in my chest (unfortunately in my tattoo area) and try to remove better tissue samples.

it turns out that harvard came up with the same results in one day that it took north shore's pathology department a week to figure out - that the tissue samples from my biopsy were not enough to properly diagnose me. so i'm back to square one with not knowing whether i have hodgkins or not.

sooooooo....i dunno....i think my brain got fried after my last fever this afternoon.....

so far, so good

sorry for not posting anything in the last few days. i haven't been taking to my best friend's death very well and i'm still in disbelief. i still think that jess is going to call me any time now and ask me how i'm doing. what upsets me most is that i didn't get to share finally reaching remission with her. but i guess she's watching over me, wherever she may be.

tomorrow i will be having surgery to finally remove my metaport. jess had one too which is what led to so many complications to her health recently. when i started to feel strange pains in the area of my metaport, i would tell jess that they were sympathy pains because her port had gotten infected which is why she was in and out of the hospital so much in the past few months. i can't wait to get my metaport out. not only do i still feel strange pain there sometimes, but it always reminds me of jess.

and for those of you who have no idea what a metaport looks like from the outside, here are some pics of mine (it's the weird round lumpy thing on the left side of my chest) -